So I have made myself a list of goals and wants for 2019. I know a lot of people do this, and a lot of people never even get round to doing half of them, the ‘new year, new me’ crap doesn’t really work. I think this year, I am not going to become the ‘new me’ but improve the person I already am.
2018 really did fly past and too be honest, although I had a great year, I don’t feel as if I achieved anything in particular. The biggest thing for me last year was going to America on my own, for a solo tour and that is the one experience that has made me want to focus on myself this year. I am definitely one of those people who massively over think things, and this can lead to me sometimes over looking what I want out of something, as I am more concerned with the people around me. This year I have made the decision to be selfish. Selfish in the sense that I want to spend the year with a smile on my face, and to do that I need to do the things I want to do. What are the things that could make me happy, and make me look back on this year the way I do when thinking about America and the way I felt when I came back. Doing the solo tour really pushed me out of my comfort zone and because I was alone, all my decisions were for myself and no one else. What a great feeling! I’m not saying I am about to disregard everyone and their feelings around me, I’m saying this year is about self love and self care. We all need more of it.
I am feeling really positive when looking to this year, which is more than I can say for 2018. I remember after new year last year, I was feeling anxious and unsure (I’m not saying I don’t feel that way at all) but this year I am going into it with more of a good outlook. I am not saying I have it all together, and I do not think I am suddenly going to find myself in 2019- I am still a little lost bunny with what I want to do with my life- but I am going into it with myself at the forefront of my mind. I do not need to please anyone, I do not need to know what I want to do with my life, I want to make this year, a year of memories. (That was disgustingly cheesy, I know and I don’t care).
I have a few things on my list as I gradually build it up but I wanted to share the couple of things I have that reflect on the ‘self love’ idea for the year:
- Read more
- Keep fitness and health good
- Learn a new skill (hoping keyboard)
- Do something that scares you
- Watch less TV/ Netflix!
- Less Social media
The last two are things to help me become more attentive to whats around me and stop feeling like I always have to have a screen on or something in the background. I don’t know about you, but I find myself always with Netflix on in the background, or put it on to fall asleep. I do this alongside looking at my phone, for what feels like every 10 minutes. I want to remove this from my routine/ life and fully immerse myself in the things I am doing, even if that is just getting ready in the morning or cooking dinner. I want to make sure I am fully in the moment, no matter what I am doing.
Now I know these may seem cheesy, generic or ridiculous to some, but I want to give them a go. I really want to focus this year and complete the things I set my mind too.
There are other things I have set for myself too, like travelling, activities and places I want to visit. Things that are simple, like seeing friends and make time for family, as all these thing effect your mood and these are the things I know make me happy.
Wish me luck! And I hope whatever goals, wants or challenges you set yourself this year, you stick to it and get what you want from them!